Entering a Bad Time, as of last night. Don't really want to talk about it, but thought I should log it for future reference. Extremely bloated, nearing painful, nausea, burping. Ginger ale for dinner and even though I have so much to do, reading on the couch is in my future.

Real tired of this. Tired of lost time. Tired of it sneaking up on me, even with the meds. Wish I could make people understand without having to explain it. Feel like a whiner as it is.

Chicken or egg?

Does your stomach ever hurt so much that it radiates to other parts of your body? I can't tell if it started in my shoulder or my stomach, but both hurt so much I want to puke. Having hot cocoa for dinner. And this, on the day I had my 3-month Cisapride check-up (blood, EKG, dr visit) and reported that everything is going well. Yes, even with the "miracle drug", the fluctuations and Bad Times continue.

stop while you're ahead

So, this week has seen improvements in the return of solid food. I recently learned I'm actually NOT lactose-intolerant so that's opened up whole new worlds (hello orange creamsicles!). Good news, good news. But, I find myself hyper-sensitive to every feeling in my stomach and esophagus, a little gun-shy if you will. I think, "Oh no, is this it, the beginning of a Very Bad Evening?" I got so excited about the solid food for dinner tonight I think I overdid it. I forget that just because I can eat solids again, doesn't mean I can eat a "normal" portion. I'm hoping the sickness stays away until bedtime. Or, I could just use it as an excuse to NOT do my taxes. ;)

With all of that, sometimes it's the understanding, or not understanding, of others that gets to me. My co-workers (most of them) know the issue, but don't really get it. I fear they think I'm exaggerating or making it up because they see me eat certain things sometimes. But, I feel like I have to test the waters every so often, even if it means getting sick later. That said, I'm worried that the next meal will be the beginning of another bad spell.

For anyone reading this, do you have these fluctuations? And do you feel stress has greatly contributed to them? I'm finding liquid is now more intolerable (right now) than solid, maybe because I feel that it shouldn't be a problem and I drink too much? The happy medium is constantly in flux.

Weekend, +1

Relatively comfortable weekend (barring the sore throat). I feel like I tolerated more food than I have in the past couple weeks, but I'm not sure any more what is enough. My proportions on portions are skewed. Did have solid food at least twice a day though, so that's definitely good. Still had to buy smaller jeans and size S tops. My rings will NOT stay on my fingers.
Because of this weekend though, I felt like I could eat more today and I fear that may not be the case. It's 4:30 and I feel intensely bloated, very tired. No backing up yet. Will wait a few hours, since it generally takes at least a couple to figure out the real damage done.